Normal is BORING!

I was over at my friends house visiting her newborn son. Seeing him brought up some nostalgia of my boys when they were little babies, then something else hit me like a semi; panic sheer and utter panic! No one tells you about the panic that you feel as a new mom, the insta-mommy guilt or the crazy hormonal roller coaster for the first couple of weeks. Breastfeeding is not as natural as you would think it would be & that self doubt would be my new hobby! There are a lot of things that I wish the parenting books told me about being a Mom, like everything that I read would not apply to my pregnancy/child. I was around a lot of kids growing up, I did my share of babysitting & was pretty good with little ones. When they are yours everything that you thought you knew goes out the window! Lets back up a minute to pregnancy all the books, even your birthing class tell you about the factual things. The statistical facts gathered & what the normal is; well normal is boring...